Starting Anew

Maybe today will be the 1st day of the rest of my life. Six weeks and 2 days after the birth and death of Sophia I am trying to resume life in a whole new fashion. Recapturing those things that have been given to me before that I scoffed at, I am starting again in my old career of film production. It feels very normal but I have lost the anger that accompanied every shoot. I appreciate the time available and the money seems great after what I've worked for in the last 5 years. $8.00 to $10.00 dollars an hour is damned humiliating and makes me constantly question the bachelor's degree I so desperately pursued and attained and am still paying for and will always pay until I die, I swear. Nonetheless. I am inspired now to spend my time away from production with Jake, writing, sewing and learning everything there is to know about yoga. A physical science I am convinced will assist in our next and necessary stage of evolution. Maybe it's crazy but it just makes sense. Yoga brings your mind and body in alignment with goodness. With that all said, just wanted to get some words on a page. Somewhere.

subject: congrats.

I just wanted to write and say congratulations.  My e-mail is redtruckbetty@hotmail.com.  If you ever need any advice, help, chat session about the ongoing birth and child process, I will be glad to offer my advice.  Are you ready for your whole life to change?  Be prepared to experience an emotion you have never, ever experienced before.  It's like falling-in-love times 1,000,000.  PAIN.  Will seem normal.  And  . . .one look in thier eyes is some sort of strange form of emotional orgasm.  BIG.  With that said. . . I am always here to provide advice and experience.  Just wanted to provide my ten cents worth of word.  WORD.  Joanna